2 years can feel so empty with out you.

Good afternoon,

When you are feeling down, and have no way to express how you are feeling. Where does your head go and  how do you get yourself out of your funk? I don't know about you, but I go workout, or I have to eat something chocolate. Lindt is my favorite, especially the hollow santas and then it would be the easter bunnies. I sometimes think that the flavor is going to be different and change how I feel about them, but every year its the same flavor and I still love them! 

As a little kid, I felt it was hard to express how I feel about things. I was always afraid what people would think about me. Sometimes people would judge right away how I felt. Before I could tell them how I'm actually feeling about a situation, people would jump and tell me what I should be feeling . For so many my brain would always agree what they said. Unfortunately, I still today struggle on how to express my feelings and be confidant on what I am feeling.

The last couple of years, I been working really hard to express how I feel and be more confidant on what I'm feeling. Sometimes, my brain doesn't want to tell anyone what I'm feeling, so  what will happen is I shut down and go back to old habits and just be person in the crowd and being frustrated with myself. I wish I could figure out how my brain works, but that is way to my science for me to figure out. It amazes me what the brain can do. 

Now that I'm trying to write again. I want to wrap it up by saying, if you think your feelings don't matter, look at yourself and tell yourself, I matter in this world and loved by the people who care for me. Don't be afraid to tell people what your feeling, because you keep your feelings inside yourself, your going to start thinking I don't matter in this world. Remember, you do matter and no matter what people say to you, just think to yourself. I love myself and no one is going to bring be down.