Healing your life, when you see your path not going the way you want it.

If you could think of any holiday, what would be? The majority of people would choose Christmas. For me, I would choose Thanksgiving. This holiday is a good one because you don't have to worry about what you're eating; you can throw those calories out of the window. You don't have worry about if you got the wrong present for that someone. You get to sit with your family and friends and talk about life, or you collaborate with each other when Travis Kelcie is going to propose Miss Taylor Swift. That always keeps a conversation going. The best part of this day was doing something traditional and making more memories.  When I was younger my parents would host Thanksgiving. I was so excited to see my extended family. It was nice to have more people to play with. The kids would go downstairs and play, and grownups would be upstairs talking bull. It was good time. When dinner was ready my parents would say," Dinner is ready. Can we have everyone in the kitchen?" This wa...

In my last blog, I talked about something really personal about me. I know it's hard to read things like this, but I don't want to hide from people anymore. I want people to see the real me not this pretend person anymore. For so many years, I felt that I had hide who I was and wasn't able to be me. My depression now is getting better, but I do have days that it's very hard to do anything. I wish I could say my suicidality was one and done, but unfortunately, I've had a couple of dark clouds. My depression is a work in progress and I hopeful that I can get this under control. I know that I have a lot of support from people, so please reach out to me and help me love myself so I am able to live my life to the fullest.  Love you guys! Tim   

Thank you very much for reading my last blog. I'm sorry that was a long one, but I wanted to share something that means a lot to me. Me being this vulnerable makes me feel a little scared because I don't like letting others see my vulnerability, but I know that people who are reading this are genuine and really care about me and making sure I'm doing okay. I see the world a little differently than everyone else. It takes me courage and strength to start my day. Without having those qualities, I don't know if I would be here today sharing this with you.  Five years ago, I got diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I never thought that I would ever get diagnosed with this. I had a normal childhood. Nothing too extreme for us. So I was surprised when I got the call from the doctor and telling me that, "You have severe anxiety and depression. Let's start taking this medication to help you." I remember hanging up the phone and started crying. I kind of ignored ...

I hope you guys tried that little exercise that I said in my last blog. I did that exercise with my oldest this morning and he loves feeling those special words about him. My heart wants me to bring you in and share with you what has happened in last couple of months of my life. Imagine waking up and you received some news that is very hard to swallow. When your done with that news, you immediately want to tell your spouse or a friend. You both look at each other and your mouth just drops wide open, and you start hugging each other because you don't know what to do with that news. Well unfortunately for me this news struck me like a bullet leaving a gun.  My family is not that big, we only have four us in our family. I have mother who always see the good in other people. I have a brother who lives his life to the fullest and I had a dad who worshipped his family and do anything for them. Unfortunately, I lost my dad to Graft vs Host disease, it came from when he was diagnosed with ...

Well, we made through Monday. I am hoping we all fun telling people what they did on the weekend. In this blog I want to be a little more vulnerable with you. I wish everything I wrote were cupcake and rainbows, but reality is no one has a perfect life you're going to have some bumps in it. Sometimes we apply for the perfect job and your prep and prep for it and when you think that you have it, you get the hr letter of rejection and you think to yourself "Why didn't they choose me, I rocked that interview". And by the time you're done getting mad, you start looking for another job and practice even harder to get that job. There are probably more examples of your life that has bumps in it. I know from experience of receiving rejection and it hurts like heck. I went to school to be an electrician and I thought this profession was going to be good fit for me, but I thought wrong. In my mind I thought being an electrician was making someone dream come alive. The feeli...

Happy Monday everyone! Why do we not like Mondays? Maybe we don't like Mondays because we are still on a high from the weekend and still want to sleep in and don't want to get dressed for work and think about the emails that you didn't open before you left for the weekend. You still want to have more time being together as a family and not to worry about getting to work or school on time. Since having kids, I feel our weekends get filled up fast by playdates or sports activities and by the time you're done with all your activities you're looking at the clock on a Sunday and you see it is late and you starting thinking "crap" I have to set alarm and pack their things for tomorrow. Making sure you packed the right blanket or stuffy animal for you kid, or you're going to hear later from them telling us that we didn't do it right. I definitely packed the wrong blanket before, I learned really quickly to ask my wife "What blanket is he loving now?...

Happy Sunday! It's that the time of the year where the leaves are dropping like flies and the temperature starts getting a little colder. You're watching your football team choke, and you're mad that you invested hours to watch them, or your team won and you're thinking, how the heck did those guys win? You start realizing that shorts are not fun to wear outside because of the cool weather, but you still wear them because you're still holding on that you might get a little tan and think the cold weather will not come.  Sometimes it's hard to realize that we can't predict the future. For me, I have the trouble of accepting that I need to be in the moment and appreciate what I have. For me, this is something I struggle with; there is part of me that wishes I could have more. Thinking about this makes me feel very selfish and crappy because I should be happy with what I have but selfish me sometimes overthinks and says, "Dang, I wish I could have such and ...

I want to say thank you for people who have been so supportive of me writing on this platform. I'm not doing it to get attention; I'm doing this to invite you to help us heal from bad wounds that have happened in your life. My goal at the end of all of this is to see life in a different way and heal from things that were tough for me to process. My time on this earth is questionable because I don't know when I will reach to the other side, so I don't want miss something in my family's life because I never had the chance to heal those things. I want to be able live life to the fullest and not look back.  When I was little, I always thought I was different than everyone else. I was very confused in my younger years. Why I never had the same color skin at my parents? Reading books and learning from your health teacher that your DNA should match your parents, I remember thinking that I have nothing that matches my parents. Remembering coming home and asking my parents, ...

I want to say thank you for all the people who wanted to read my first blog. I love hearing that it made people happy. The whole point of doing this is to help myself to be a better person and hopefully help one person who is having a bad day and turn that bad day into a good day. Sometimes I struggle to have a good day and rely on friends or family to help me get out of my funk. A smile can go a long way. It can even make a frown go upside down and then you start smiling and that funk is not there anymore.  So, for blog number two, I want to talk about how something simple can really impact on a person. When I was little, my parents would aways make their priority to make me smile or laugh. Sometimes they would tickle my feet or do a funny face to make sure I was happy and not feeling sad that I wasn't with my birth mother. If people don't know my mom, she has one of the biggest smiles that you will see. I always thought when I was younger that her smile was going to fall off ...

 Good evening readers, My name is Tim, and this is my first ever blog post. My title of my first blog post is "trust what is coming to you."  A little brief history of me: I was adopted from Colombia when I was 3 years old. I never knew what life would be like out of my home country. I have an older brother who was also adopted from Colombia. When I heard adopted, I always thought abandonment, not worthy to be part of their family. Why me? Was I not cute enough or had something that they wanted that I didn't have? This took a long to time to realize that them not wanting me was them putting trust in my adopted parents to give me a better life. I still wonder what would happen if I wasn't adopted and I stayed in Colombia. Would I been on the streets begging for money to be able provide for my family? The sacrifice that my birth mother had to give me up must have been really hard for her. I don't know if my birth mother had more kids. Maybe I don't really want t...